In November 2008, Ivaan attended my convocation. He devoted the next two weeks to helping me study for an important final exam. He died three days before the exam. My wonderful prof offered to excuse me from having to write the exam, but I was determined to write it in Ivaan's memory. It actually felt like a relief to have something else to think about for a few hours. I got 90% on the exam - or at least Ivaan did. I couldn't have done it without him.
Although I've taken a few university courses since Ivaan's death, I hadn't really formulated a plan for future studies. My life is extremely busy with Atelier Ivaan, my hospice work, social obligations, Ivaan's legacy, family responsibilities and occasionally some sleep. Nonetheless, I abruptly decided to make myself even busier.
I'm hitting the books again in September. By some miracle, my classes are mostly on days Atelier Ivaan is closed, and while I no longer have the luxury of living three minutes away from class, I'm looking forward to the intellectual rigour of being back at university.
The Vice President of Atelier Ivaan recently pulled down a 91 in Calculus and a 92 in some other Engineering-related course. Not sure I can aspire to that, but however busy I am in September, life is going to be easier than it was in September 2008.